where's my unhappy ending?
Posted by kopout at 11:41 PM on November 21, 2009.
maybe now is the time to pull out.
maybe now there will be enough impact to break his heart as he broke mine.
i'm a cold hard bitch
and i'm driven, goddammit.
will this save my opinion of myself?
will this salvage the person i was from the depths of my self-hatred?
forget it.
so much of the life "essentials" have been ruined for me forever.
friendship and love and sex mean little to me.
conquer, conquest, now those are words i can enjoy.
my self esteem only benefits from the hunt.
i'm trapped. i'm bored.
i'm pointless.
there's no draw to attempting to go back to the person i was now.
it's not possible anyhow.
ugh. i hate having any emotion at all. i hate being anything more or less than a success machine.
it's a livejournal kind of life.
Currently listening to: stars
Currently reading: crap i wrote